Imperfect Love - A Poem Dedicated To You
- Sophia Michelle V. Humel
- Jun 17, 2019
- 3 min read
Our love wasn't perfect, but it was ours for the taking.
Our love wasn't sweet as candy, but it was full of silliness, as if we retired from the circus.
Our love wasn't conventional, but it was special to me.
Our love wasn't what others expected, but it was what I needed.
Our love, our love, our love.
Perfect it was not, but my darling it was everything perfection could not be.
Perfect is overrated, but yet, our imperfections together is all I see.
Perfect we were not, but darling, you were perfect for me.
Perfect was never something I wanted for us and that is wish I got.
Perfect is what young foolish people wish for, but darling your smile was the only thing I wished to see.
Imperfection was what others could see in us as a couple, but my darling it wasn't what I only was in us together.
Imperfections brought us together, but I wish it also kept us together.
Imperfections didn't keep us apart, but it also set us apart.
Imperfections set us apart, but that was my fault.
My fault that I couldn't communicate with you, but I never had someone who wanted to be with me like you did.
My fault that I let you believe I didn't feel the same for you as you did for me, but I felt I was holding you back in one way or another.
My fault that I pushed you away, but I never truly wanted to; I just never knew how to truly open up to you.
My fault that I lost contact with you when I promised I would always be there for you, but how do you be there for someone you love while they move on? When you push them to move on?
My fault that I couldn't speak up to you about how I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, but I never wanted to keep you from any happiness you could have achieved without me holding you back.
My fault, my fault, my freaking fault.
Two years and I still check up on you, but I've never made a move to talk to you.
Two years and I'm still wishing I was with you, but I know deep down it could never be.
Two years and my gosh - how life has changed, but its not all bad change.
Two years and you recently had a child but it's with her.
Two years ago and I wish I could have told you then everything I feared, but also everything I truly felt for you.
Two years and I wish with all my heart that I could have changed my mind of telling you everything on my mind.
Two years, two years, two god damn years.
Our love wasn't perfect.
Our imperfections didn't keep us apart.
Our two years apart didn't stop my love.
You are worth so much love, and I wish I could explain how much you still mean to me. I hope to all that is good in the universe that she treats you as I hoped she would. I hope she knows how lucky she is to have you. I hope she's able to communicate to you unlike I was able to. I hope for only the best for you. I hope only happiness comes your way.
I hope, I hope, I hope.
You'll probably never see this and maybe it won't change a single thing even if you did. To be honest, that's alright. This isn't for you. This is for me, something for me to be able to finally let you go and move on. To truly move on, might not be anytime soon but who knows? The world is a crazy thing.
Until next time my darlings. Keep holding yourself strong.
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